Wow, so my original goal was to write a book, of course.
I randomly picked the number 50K for my word count because it’s on the lower end of a respectable number of pages for a young adult book. And I reckoned it sounded a pretty damn big number to me. (Pretty Damn Big) I mean, the longest thing I’d ever written before was a 60 page thesis a million years ago.
That famous treatise currently gathering dust at my old university is shelved under the title ‘History Misappropriated: The Deluge in Balkan Reportage, 1912-1919.’ Yes, read it and weep.
This fiction manuscript of mine; however, features nary a whisper of Balkan reportage. Although, now that I think about it, misappropriated history does seem to be a common thread. *secretive smile*
Well, today, after some grunting and groaning over the past week–one filled with turmoil and self-castigation–I can report that my manuscript stands at 52K.
And it ain’t done yet. My story’s still only 2/3 told.
So what does 52 thousand words look like? It looks like 242 pages of gobbledeegook, to be honest. 🙂 Hurrah! Of those 242 pages, about 70 deserve a rather immediate axing, as the story’s taken such a wild shift from where it started. I like to think it’s much better. That said, I have to say that about 40 of those pages are so beloved to me that I’m thinking to save them for a future book, a very different one. Either way, deleting all those first pages means I need to draft a new 15 pages into my beginning.
So I’ve got those pages, plus the remaining 1/3 of my manuscript, and then I’ll have a first draft to abhor and weep over, before the rewriting, revising, editing, strategizing, restructuring and complete overhauls that comprise working on one’s second draft. (Or so I imagine.) Then the third draft. Then… 🙂
I have to say… Writing a book takes WORK!!! Ain’t nothin’ simple about it, other than there’s only one way forward, ultimately. Namely: Start. And keep starting every single day. Regardless of how stuck one thinks one is, how confused, how overwhelmed.
Oh, and I violated my only writing rule (other than WRITE!) over the past two days. I went back to the beginning of my book and rewrote parts. And I have to say, it helped. 🙂
I no longer feel overwhelmed. 🙂
Yeah, um, overwhelmed is not toooooooo far from the surface. 😉